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January |
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Life
is beautiful. I realized as I started this year
just how much my life is like I always envisioned
it. I am an ordinary guy with a decent job,
dating, making friends and just being that person
that was always crying out to be released for 43
years of my life. It really is amazing. If you
gave a person a costume and told them they had to
wear it the rest of their life and act like
whatever that costume represented, it would
create major havoc in their lives. Imagine
dressing up like a clown, so no one would ever
know what you really looked like, you could only
communicate in in clown, not being able to act or
talk or be what you really felt like. That's
kinda how I equate it. To finally throw off the
costume is the most freeing thing ever. What
people take for granted is a daily joy to me. Of
all this, I think the ability to really enjoy
every day is a fair trade off. There is so very
little I take for granted. Well, maybe not. I
still wish I could approach a woman with out
worrying or thinking of what's in my pants, or
what's not.... Not much new on the T*
front. Still love playing with my 'stache. Still
love shaving, even though it is a pain. I don't
shave on weekends and I love how fast and dark
the hairs grow by Monday morning. Major hairs in
the sink on Mondays...LOL
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February |
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Seems
all I talk about and see is darkening facial
hairs, but they aren't traveling down to my jaw
line yet. Is this ever gonna happen?????? |
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March |
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I
started letting my sideburns grow. I started over
the weekend, and by monday I felt comfortable not
shaving them. Finally they are dark and hard
enough to not make me look like a kid trying to
grow them. I have manly sideburns!!! |
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April |
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Actually
have started letting all my facial hair, except
under my chin grow. The effect is like mutton
chops. It really looks kinda cool. I know,
muttonchops are outdated, but damn it I don't
care, I just love having a partially hairy face.
The girls at work are nice about it, they have
commented on them, so either they look okay, or
they are just being nice. I don't care. I love
them. Mom hates them, but then she hates facial
hair period, so I take that as a compliment. |
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May |
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Man,
got laid off for the first time in my life, from
a job I really loved. It had gotten harder
lately, and I was the target of sabotage by the
woman I hired to take over payroll, so I could
concentrate on HR. Things were tense sometimes,
but I really loved putting on a shirt and tie and
walking into an office with my name on it and
knowing I was doing really good work. Been studying Tao and some other
stuff, and it really helped with keeping my head
on straight. The company closed several branches
and went from 250 people to 60 in two months, so
that helped me mentally, too.
My 'chops are
pretty thick now, not really thick but nicely so.
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June |
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2
or 3 more chin hairs, but thats it. Job hunting
sucks.
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July |
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Nothing
much, still love facial hair and trimming my
'chops. Feel like I hit another plateau.
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August |
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till
on that damned plateau. Nothing new. Well
actually I have noticed some dark hairs starting
to fur out around by nips. Looks pretty funny on
those bags hanging there. But at least I know I
will eventually have chest hair. The dark mat on
my stomach has somewhat disappeared. The hairs
are still there, just not as dark as they were
about a year ago. What's up with that???
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September |
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Life
just took a major downturn. I ran out of T* my
last shot early in the month, and with no money
and no insurance, I can't go to the doc, and she
won't prescribe unless I get a physical. Well, I
just gotta get some cash saved up, her visits are
expensive and the tests she insists on are even
worse. Finally got on
unemployment, at least it pays the bills barely.
I am so far behind in rent and other stuff it
will be awhile before I can breathe comfortably
again. Oh well, onward and upward...
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October |
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Got
a part time job to help with the money situation.
Shaved my chops, as the hair was seeming to get
softer and lighter. First effects of no T* for a
month I guess. |
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November |
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Lack
of T* is ravaging my bod. My clothes don't fit,
binding barely works as my chest has become much
fuller. Being heavier than I ever was doesn't
help. It's a struggle to keep my spirits up
sometimes. I have been really moody, and
recognize some of the old stuff I used to do when
I was depressed. I am determined not to go that
way again. The only good thing is a girl at work
who was ignoring me is now flirting pretty
majorly, lots of touching and innuendo. She is
married, so I am not gonna touch it, but damn,
she is the hottest girl I have ever met, and to
have her come on to me is about the greatest
feeling. Man she is so beautiful and hot. UM, UM,
Ummmmm. |
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December |
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Christmas
was great, family was really much cooler than any
other year. Except for my one sis, who still
doesn't use Devin that much, everybody was pretty
easy with the he's and him's and my name. My
sister is way cooler though about the whole
thing, no more remarks about this being a fad or
wrong, or stupid etc. I actually felt very easy
being around them again, and they were obviously
easy around me. One major setback, I had cramps
and stuff for days... I feel like a part of me
died.
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